Reminiscence~

note: if you do not want to make your mood down.its okay if you do not read. because it all just about my feelings. (:


after yesterday talk with siti, i thought i have alread sorted out my feeling.
i mean maybe yes. partly. but sometimes i just cant take it.
its not like i didnt want to give up. i already gave up. but the feeling is still there.

i just have a talk with 1 of my friends. its been long since we really sit down and talk.
after so long, we finally sorted out what actually happen like 3 yr back.
of cos, now we are still friends. finally its finally we sort everything out and talk. thanks (:

but for now. i know i have been emo-ing this few days. fcuk! i really cant take it. after 2 months of putting it everything inside my hearts. without telling anyone. now i really have to burst it out. just left the part that i didnt really want to cry out and break down. i totally do not know how to describe the feeling and emotion in me now. fcukfcuk!

BUT FOR NOW! i am telling myself to stay happy. everyday laugh. at least for now i took the initiative to say something. althought there is nothing much i am left to do. actually, frankly speaking, maybe i just held on the the time even before whatever that started. when we were use to be such a good friend - i guess. when we can talk anything,about anything. at least at that point of time, i didnt know my feeling, but we were good friends. how i wish to go back to that time. before july 22.the day that started my both bad and good memories.
however, i will keep the good and sweet memories inside my heart. and try to make the bad memories vanish.

fcuk! if only times would go back. or fast forwards. or just ...................
but seriously, i still miss.freak freak freak! argh! rarw!