intheworld

It was never easy to go through the 'down period'
As day pass by, we asked ourself what we have achieve.
Looking back into the past.

I had a dream, a dream that reminds me of the past.
'Reminiscence'
Till today, i had not finish using the things that you gave me.
I'm still looking at it everyday.
But the past always remain as memories.

'Memories'
I believes in everyone heart, there is always some memories that stay with them throughout their lives.

We all know that it was hard to let go at times.
However, the world is still making his turn,
the time is still going towards the future.
Indicating that we should move on.

After all that have happen in my life since i'm sensible.
The little details kept in my heart.
Keeping it as my memories.
It's memories because i'ad already move on with my life.

My closest kin, my brother flew off back to Perth today.
Wonder when will he come back.
But no matter what unhappy stuff we had, it doesn't matter.
I will still wish him safe and study hard over there.
Don't make our parents worry. (:

I understand one point
"no matter where they are,
no matter what happen to you,
no matter how far or close they are,
they'do always care and love you.
because they are someone you will care always and vice-versa"

I'm off to study.
The last lap of my poly life.
But will also mean the beginning of another phrase in life. (:

because, no one will ever get why i wanted to do it.
there may be a reason that fall behind it.
but it's unexplainable.
the more you continue, the more i'm unable to take it.
you use to understand me the best. but things changes.
now i'm scare. i'm really scare.
i don't know since when. but sometimes the feeling is coming back. ):

is that even me? or am i back to the usual me?
that i can't control my emotion?

Usually people are always busy during their weekends like going out and have fun with friend, family. but sometimes, there are other stuff to be busy with.

I kind of miss going out with the bonders. they are always the one that make me feel happy. maybe somewhere without much conflict and all.

well, people that are close to one another sometimes tend to keep some part of their secret with themself. even if it's a big group or just a few friends. sometimes wonder what trust is or maybe to say, whether is it really comfortable with them around.

*sorry but i backspace. i'm not sure if i should carry on writing this.

ever thought of how to be a good daughter/son in every parents hearts?
recently i have been trying very hard. it's always when there is a period of time. where everything just fall into pieces. it's like hard to mend. or seems like a puzzle that is hard to piece it into a full picture. trying to stay at home this week, did some house chores, accompany them, only ask for money once a week. i have been trying hard. its like, the life i am leading now is =.=.
seriously i a kind of broke now. trying to save up my money. but whenever i am out. its is very obvious that in singapore, you wll spent money. trying to spend the most minimum of moneyalready. they will only say that now holiday still take money for what.
i am not blaming or what. ever since my brother's birthday. i am still waiting for my dad to transfer money to me. and are still waiting for ppl to return me the money. ):

have to admit to myself that, have been feeling down lately. alot of thoughts. family, friends and more. shall update later . currently not in the mood.

mixed.restriction

having holiday may seems to be good.
no stress over study and school stuff.
but life has been down lately.
due to alot of continous problem. or maybe its not a problem, its just a thought.
sometimes when alone, you will start to imagine things, or think of the past. reminiscence
another things which make me feel down, was the continous nagging of my parents? i guess so.
i'm getting tired or alot of things.

ling stay over at my house yesterday.
i think past 1+am ytd, i got a call. and i know who that person is.
guess that person is with his friends and playing a fool.
oh well, guess that person got nothing better to do, to call ppl in the middle of the night and talk stupid things. drop this topic.
woke up quite late today, ard 10+, watch the tv and i have my piano lesson today again.
today piano lesson was quite alright. i just manage to play the 2nd piece once, and everything seems good. but, my scales totally sucks.

mood is playing around with me.
making me feeling ups and downs.
reason for me to hold one and stay on, nothing much i guess.
finding the reason to keep myself in place. ):

sometimes its just flash back,
sometimes its just a thought,
sometimes its just a feeling,
sometimes its just fake,
sometimes its just wasn't real,
sometimes its just what you want,
sometimes its just when you believe,
sometimes its just when you trust,
sometimes its just when you lost it,
sometimes its just when there is hope,
sometimes its just when everything is a dream,
sometimes its just when you face the reality,
and know that it will never happen again