Reminiscence~

heart bumping at that moment.
i do not wann to lie. and i do not wann to runaway from problem.
at least i succeeded for 1 week without feeling emo and all. or maybe 1 week plus.

the mind and heart are playing. it just cant stop. being dreaming about it lately.
which make me feel kind of sad. and today. i almost cannot take that shock.
its been long since i really saw and talk to ...
as usual. i took the initiative. i ask a question.
taking a harder breath than usual. its at my top most limit. if only things will get better.
i fcuking hate myself sometimes. cant i just be normal. or thats was just a normal reaction.
i wanted to backspace.but i din. for now. i will try my best. hai.

if only i could turn back time.if only things will be like the past.
if only we were still good friends. if only i haven say yes.
if only i am able to change the past.