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knowing it all to myself. i have been feeling down lately.
the only happiest things was going out with bonders and with the msc girls.

i am already trying freakin hard to stop thinking about all those unhappy things.
but sometimes. it is kind of contridicting heh. for certain thing, i was happy. but after awhile i am kind of unhappy. seriously, its all those kind of confuse and mixed feeling.
frankly speaking, i also not sure what i am thinking.

alot of things has happen. it just seems to be the down period of life. i guess. this period is the worst period i have this year. when everything that use to be fine now falling into pieces.
when will it get back to normal and form into a picture again ?

for now, i just hope that al those fallen pieces will get back to its place. although i know 1 of it will never become back. but i hope it wil be better.

as for this whole week will be working afternoon shift. but tml and thurs there will be training.
i guess i will be super tired. this few days didnt really get any much sleep.

so sorry, the last few post was vulgar. just sad. but i really hope it will be better.

but till now, its still the worst feeling.
sometimes, i just feel like running away from here. escaping from all this.
but if i can.
but thanks all for the caring and console. love you all. you know who you are .thanks.